Heart of Darkness by Antane
I have the power of light and dark and have used both
I’ve been touched by the black heart of everlasting night
And saved by he who has always been my light
I’ve been in torment enough to want to die
And healed enough to want to live
My friend, my brother felt the pull of the black, but resisted
He saw the promise as fantasy from the beginning
He has been ever strong
But I had already been pulled into that black pool to the point of drowning
It came to control me
The night became my day
The black entered my soul
The dawn did not come to banish to shadows
I had sent it away
I remember feeling trapped, the darkness pressing in on all sides
I remember struggling to breathe, but the black suffocated me
No escape, no way out
Slipping, sliding, I fell
I became a stranger, a demon, the enemy
I was to be the light that would destroy Sauron’s darkness
The darkness fears the light
It boasts of its strength, but it cowers and flees from the bright
It trusts no one
It is isolated and alone, having only its own dark emotions, its own hatreds and rages
to feed upon and like anything that feeds upon itself, it is consumed
But what light was left in me?
I have not ceased to fight since the first, but who was there to save me?
Who was left who I hadn’t tried to destroy?
I had already tried to kill my best friend, my brother
And the one I said I wanted to save
That’s what haunts my nights
And leaves me screaming in terror
That I could have hurt, that I could have killed my friend, the light to my darkness
That I did hurt him many times
My soul will carry the scars of those betrayals, the light itself, all my life
But I will also always carry my brother's love
When we stood together in the heart of darkness and the power overwhelmed me, he remained firm
He pulled me out from it all
He trusted me, believed in me, broke into my prison
He held out his hand, his love, his life
He risked everything to save me
He wouldn’t allow me to be lost
I could have held the world in my hands, but instead of that false promise, I reached for the reality of his hand