Belonging by Bodkin

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Candy · 2 September 2008 · Chapter 1: Belonging

That was lovely! I love brooding Elrond but happy with Celebrian Elrond is even better!

Larner · 4 December 2007 · Chapter 1: Belonging

And in the end three were enough, they ended up separated for about five centuries, and there was one more loss ere their reunion. Not the togetherness and blissful peace he'd wished for, but one with its own joys. I appear to have missed this one while Hughes was keeping me offline for weeks at a time. A beautiful, erotic look at the earliest times of this wonderful marriage. How much loss Elrond knew during his life--parents, home, beloved foster father, brother, mentor and king, so many beside whom he labored and fought, great nephews and their siblings almost beyond count, and at last home and beloved daughter and foster-son close as his own progeny as he sailed west to find this love once more awaiting him. That he should know this joy is so wonderful, especially when I read it in so well told a tale. Thank you, Bodkin.

Lindelea · 25 July 2006 · Chapter 1: Belonging

Bittersweet and beautifully done. This was a particularly nice exchange: ‘I can taste prevarication on your lips,’ he warned her. ‘I will have to seek the truth of the matter.’ And this was almost painful to read, considering what we know of the future: Too hurt to trust to fate or the Valar, he concealed the fear that every blessing would come with a sting, that every gift carried with it a doom. But now you make me curious to know more. You know, I really don't know when Imladris was built, or who built it (Elrond?) or how he came to be a Lord in the first place, after being Gil-Galad's herald. (Have been reading about what heralds did in the Middle Ages, as a matter of fact, and haven't quite been able to reconcile that with the little I know of Elves.)

Author's reply

H'mm. Imladris was established in 1697 of the Second Age when Appendix B says - 'Eregion laid waste. Death of Celebrimbor. The gates of Moria are shut. Elrond retreats with remnant of the Noldor and founds the refuge of Imladris.' The Second Age then goes on until 3441. Elrond marries Celebrian in 109 of the Third Age with the twins arriving in 130 and Arwen in 241. Elrond certainly wasn't a Herald in the sense of being a chap with a trumpet who announced guests. I wonder if Tolkien meant it to be more the voice of Gil-galad - one who would go forth and speak for his king. Or then there is the College of Heralds - who are more (to my mind) the record-keepers for the aristocracy. I could see Elrond as the one who kept the written record of his people. Elrond was desperately young at the time of the War of Wrath, and any role he had then would have been, I suspect, symbolic, but by the Last Alliance he was 3500+ years old, scholarly and wise and he had been running Imladris for about 1500 years. He would have been far more than a figurehead. He was (I think without checking the family tree) Gil-galad's closest male relative and (probably) the person most likely to take up the kingship of the Noldor after Gil-galad's death. Gil-galad was - again probably - Fingon's son, while Elrond was Turgon's great-grandson. (Just talking Noldor bloodlines here.) Fingon and Turgon were Fingolfin's sons and Finwe's grandsons - and first cousins to Galadriel. In addition to his descent from the Noldor kings, Elrond is also the only elven descendant of Elu Thingol and Melian - through Luthien, Dior and Elwing. And that is ignoring his descent from the three houses of Men. His father, Earendil, was Lord of Sirion - before taking up his night job as Gil-estel. Elrond is more than qualified for being a Lord - although he is frequently referred to as Master Elrond. I do think Elrond needed Celebrian - she has had a fairly secure life with two strong parents protecting her and has grown up very secure, while Elrond was 'orphaned' very young and has already had a lot of abandonment and loneliness to deal with. And that makes knowing what happened to Celebrian very sad - but they did have 2500 years or so together before she had to sail - and they were reunited, even if their children did not sail and Arwen's choice meant that she never would. And at the moment they are fairly newly-wed and very happy. And Celebrian is determined to make Elrond relax and enjoy the little moments instead of concentrating on the big picture and his duty all the time. I think she'll succeed! He will have some very happy times to look back on when sadness comes.

Imhiriel · 24 July 2006 · Chapter 1: Belonging

Beautiful; more sensuous than any more explicit descriptions could be; heart-warming. Celebrían, and her thoughts on her husband, are simply delightful. I particularly like the paragraph beginning with "Celebrían held him to her like a treasure as he rested on her breast..."

Author's reply

I do feel some things are best suggested - the imagination can fill in the rest quite easily! Celebrian is a delightful character - and I love the way Nilmandra portrays her - she is warm and outgoing and mischievous and yet an absolute rock for an elf who needed that more than anything. And although tragedy comes, they do have about 2500 years of happiness to bolster them against the bad times to come. Thank you - I'm glad you enjoyed it.

The Karenator · 26 June 2006 · Chapter 1: Belonging

Ah, Bodkin, she says with a sigh. That was lovely. Reading about Elrond and Celebrían is always rather bittersweet, but it's always nice to see them young, in love, and playful. One of Celebrían's strengths in the dark times ahead was this love they shared. You did such a nice job of showing in this snippet in time how that bond grew and was nurtured by them both. I loved the discussion about being shallow. I suppose we all have shallow moments when with the one we love, but that attraction is what makes the whole thing so much fun. It's as it should be. I also loved the line about Celebrían being from the kitchen. Made me smile. At the end, when she pondered how much he had lost already and how hard it was to trust that happiness would not be snatched from him was quite poignant. You have such a lovely way with words. Sorry I'm so far behind on reviewing, but I did want to tell you what a delightful story this is. I'm sure it made Nilmandra's day as it did mine. I love all this birthday fic stuff. We all get a gift!

Author's reply

Thank you, Karen. I'm glad you liked it. I keep reminding myself that Elrond and Celebrian had 2500 years or so of happiness - and that they will be reunited (when I suspect their passion for each other will be even more intense - for a time, at least!) Elrond and Celebrian could relish the pleasure of being shallow together - because they both knew that underneath the shallow, they had depth like the Mariana Trench. And the opportunity to play must have been a revelation to Elrond, who (I think) was probably sober beyond his years from the time he was four. Possibly even before, if foresight struck him young. The dramatic irony of knowing that their love won't last - undamaged, anyway - is one of those things that makes their happiness now so very important and heart-rending. It takes me a while to get round to replying sometimes! (Some days just are !!!) I'm just happy you enjoyed the tale. These birthday stories are rather fun. ... I shall have to poke around and see if I can discover yours to add to the list!

meckinock · 23 June 2006 · Chapter 1: Belonging

The only thing Nilmandra likes as much as fluffy elflings is....half-naked, soaking wet, hair-unbound, playfully lustful Elrond! Whoa. What an image of him in that first paragraph. This was such an engaging look at him and Celebrian together in the full, bounteous spring of their marriage. I don't know how long the giddy newlywed stage lasts in elves but I like it. I love the playfulness and the teasing between these two. Elrond had been through so much by this time, it took a very special elleth to get him to let his hair down and enjoy life. The playful banter about elflings is wonderful - it's so warm and natural, and so nice to see them accepting the future as a gift. Maybe they'll get that dozen elflings, someday. They certainly seem to have the stamina for it. Lovely story, Bodkin.

Author's reply

Well - that's surely a sign of good taste! Only to be compared to slightly-rougher-at-the-edges, half-naked, soaking wet, hair-unbound, playfully lustful Rangers! Elrond must have been giddy in the early years of marriage to Celebrian - unable to believe his luck and bemused that he had suddenly come home. I reckon he would have done his best to be dignified in public, but it wouldn't have taken Celebrian more than a touch to have turned him to jelly. Which could have been bad, I suppose, if she hadn't been as strong and loving and generous as he was. A dozen elflings seems a bit of an undertaking - but I do love to thing that, perhaps, once the twins returned to them, they might have gifted the Blessed Realm with an elfling or two who could grow up in peace and safety, without having to face the difficulties of the choice. Thanks, meckinock. I'm glad you liked it.

perelleth · 22 June 2006 · Chapter 1: Belonging

How sweet and sexy! It's very entertaining to watch these two playing together as a newly wed couple, and planning a dozen elflings and thus beating Feanor's record! A perfect birthday present, I'm sure!

Author's reply

Thank you! I think Elrond would be slightly astounded at his capacity for play - and have a tiny detached part of himself looking down and marvelling. Both at the play and at the sheer fantastic wonderfulness of having Celebrian devote herself to him. He had been without family for a long time - and having her twining her fea with his must have been heady stuff! I think they were joking about the dozen elflings though - more's the pity! A better birthday present than Gollum's? Less life-changing, certainly!

Kitty · 22 June 2006 · Chapter 1: Belonging

Sweet ficlet, Bodkin! How lovely to see them playing so carefree with each other! I think Celebrían was good for Elrond, as she made him happy after all his losses and gave him the family he had never truly had, even as an elfling. Though I suppose they changed their mind about the two dozen elflings after the twins were born. Imladris wouldn't have survived more of this sort, and neither would Elrond and Celebrán have remained sane ;-)

Author's reply

Celebrian gave Elrond someone who really belonged to him - probably for the first time since Elros chose to become mortal. (I can't decide whether their bond would have weakened then or whether he felt Elros until his twin's death.) And elven bonds being what they were, for the first time since then, he will have known that he was not alone - something that then had 2500 years or so to grow before it got put on hold for 500 more years. I don't know that they were too serious about two dozen elflings ... it seems rather an excessive number. It would make me happy to feel that they perhaps extended their family a little in the Blessed Realm in the enthusiasm of being reunited - although I think Elrond might not have wanted to... I suppose elves could, I they liked, have extended two dozen elflings over several ages... But I think they were just joking!

elliska · 21 June 2006 · Chapter 1: Belonging

Oh I love seeing Elrond and Celebrian this way and I know Nilmandra will as well. It is so wonderful to imagine them newly wed (in elven views of time) and still so powerfully drawn to each other and completely enjoying that feeling. And this was quite steamy. Loved it, Bodkin! And again, happy birthday Nilmandra!

Author's reply

Elrond spent a long time alone. Friends, certainly - Glorfindel, Gil-galad, Erestor probably - lots of people who cared about him. But no-one who belonged - he's still learning to adjust to it, I think. Having let someone in behind his defences. Celebrian is much more confident - younger and having lost far less in her life. And they are having fun! Keeping warm in spite of the cold water!! I'm glad you liked it ... if you all - and Nilmandra - enjoyed it then I'm happy.

Redheredh · 20 June 2006 · Chapter 1: Belonging

What a lovely interlude! And in your utterly wonderful, talented style. He takes her breath away!! Loved that bit. :) Very enjoyable and sweet. A excellent gift for the great lady's birthday.

Author's reply

Thank you, Redheredh. Elrond and Celebrian deserved a day away from being sensible and responsible. I love the way Celebrian releases Elrond's inner elfling - he hasn't much experience of the total trust that exists between the two of them. And he knows that he has that level of power over her - and that's good for him, too. An afternoon to remember!

French Pony · 20 June 2006 · Chapter 1: Belonging

Ah, newlyweds. They certainly know exactly what to do with a summer day. I like the sense this story evokes of Elrond's fragile side.

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Elrond was wary, I think. Too many bricks dropped on him. But his trust in Celebrian - and his willingness to open out to her - was very good for him. I have to keep reminding myself that they had 2500 years or so of happiness to bolster them for the events that then separated them for 500. And they were reunited. And this afternoon would have been one of the jewels on the chain of memory. (I'm only surprised they packed up and went home...)

Gwynhyffar · 20 June 2006 · Chapter 1: Belonging

That was absolutely beautiful, Bodkin. It flowed so wonderfully that I could see them there just enjoying each other. I loved Celebrian's thoughts about Elrond's tendency toward prudishness and the way she gently coaxed him around to just where he needed to be. Again.. stunning. I loved it.

Author's reply

Thank you, Gwynhyffar. Elrond grew to be rather cautious and reserved, I think. Life didn't give him many opportunties to think that everything would always turn out for the best. Celebrian, on the other hand, was a greatly treasured child - and less concerned about what anyone outside her own circle might think. She was determined to make this a day to remember - and I like to think she stirred up Elrond's Sindar side!

MaidenofValinor · 20 June 2006 · Chapter 1: Belonging

Elves in love are so beautifully poetic. Especially these two. 2 dozen? My goodness! I suppose once they had the twins, they realised that was far too much for two sane beings to handle. This was lovely, Bodkin. The dialogue was simply wonderful. Great job!

Author's reply

A friend of mine once worked out that you needed to have five children to make up for the financial investment in baby stuff ... she changed her mind once she had kids and realised that a) they were exhausting b) they were bottomless money pits and c) these soft, helpless little creatures managed to destroy all the expensive baby gear so that it had to be replaced at intervals. I don't know that they were that serious about the two dozen ... and twins can be a bit of a steep learning curve. I like to imagine that they might have added an elfling or two to their collection when they were reunited - but I have a feeling Elrond might have been too wary. Thank you. I'm glad you enjoyed it!

Armariel · 20 June 2006 · Chapter 1: Belonging

ohhh lovely...steamy, romantic, delightful...a bit poignant too, considering events to come. Love your take on Celebrian, just perfect. No prissy elf she! Beautifully rendered vignette celebrating marital love in a way that is at once sensuous and innocent somehow. ~~~{~@

Author's reply

I picture Glorfindel and Celebrian working hard here to persuade Elrond to go off and enjoy his Sindar side. And Elrond and Celebrian have over two thousand years together to come at this point - and three gorgeous elflings to raise. I think, without that, Elrond would have found it close to impossible to endure the last 500 years of the Third Age. Sensuous and innocent... I like that! Thank you.

Nilmandra · 20 June 2006 · Chapter 1: Belonging

I cried as I read this, for so many reasons, both personal and out of my deep love of this couple. Thank you so much for giving them a wonderful, loving afternoon to play and love and grow together. This was sweet and sexy and bittersweet, for those who know that she must leave him, at least for a time. I love this Celebrian - strong and steel and playful and full of love. I love seeing Elrond happy... what a wonderful birthday present!! (you know, you do have to say when yours is, or we're just going to arbitrarily assign a date...).

Author's reply

I have a suspicion that Glorfindel and Celebrian had to work quite hard to get Elrond to abandon his responsibilities and take the time to play - but they succeeded and it became a golden moment for them. They have 2.5 millennia yet - to grow together and become so much part of each other that even their 500 year division could not really break them. And at least we know they were reunited. Happy birthday, Nilmandra - even if it isn't actually until tomorrow. (Mine? Day before the Queen Mother's. Although she's not celebrating hers any more.)

Dot · 20 June 2006 · Chapter 1: Belonging

Poor Elrond, defeated by a fish! I enjoyed the antics as almost as much as Celebrian did, I must say. The playfulness between them is a joy to witness. And Celebrian is such a tease! Not that Elrond is far behind her – she certainly brings out a wonderfully light-hearted side in him. But it’s more than that. These two are so in love. I really like the way she can read him so well and tries to draw him out of himself. It seems like Elrond, because of his reluctance to trust and to make himself vulnerable, becomes quite fierce in his devotion to the person who has taken over his heart so completely. Celebrian’s self-confidence and self-assurance are good for Elrond, I think, but it’s interesting too because he is so devoted to her that in a way, that leaves him even more open – not just if anything happened to her (and let’s not think about that yet!) but if anything even made her unhappy. She’s right that they should have children. He needs a family and he needs unconditional love – and he also needs the balance it would bring. Yet, even if they never had children, she’s already helped fill a void that has been there for too long. And perhaps even more importantly, she’s teaching him to grasp happiness when he can – to enjoy it and to accept it. And for all her strength and independence, she needs him too. They are a perfect fit – they belong together. I should have started this earlier because there’s probably lots more to say. Anyway, I loved it. It’s incredibly sexy and sensual and full of love and hope and devotion. Everything is spot on. Just wonderful.

Author's reply

I don't think he was too bothered by the fish - not with a handy Celebrian to divest of her clothing! The Third Age is new and hopeful, they are newly wed - and they are seizing the chance to be happy. I reckon Elrond took a while to give total trust - too many bad things had happened to him - but his wife is very good for him. (Glorfindel must be hopping with glee at this time!) And children are good for him, I think. Should have had a few more.... Maybe in the Blessed Realm. Mind you, there's a possibility that his experience made him better able to cope with their eventual division - and have faith that it would end. Maybe. Thank you. I'm glad you enjoyed it!

harrowcat · 20 June 2006 · Chapter 1: Belonging

Lovely Bodkin.

Author's reply

Thank you! Elrond and Celebrian deserve a happy excursion!

shirebound · 20 June 2006 · Chapter 1: Belonging

the elf who still yearned for the family he had barely known and ached for those who were lost to him. A lovely, intimate scene. It's interesting to see Celebrian's perceptions and insight into her husband, and marriage, grow slowly with time... and bring ever-increasing joy to them both.

Author's reply

They had the better part of the Third Age together - and I think that Celebrian's constant love was very important in helping Elrond deal with the losses he had suffered. She was a strong and secure elleth herself ... until the attack, anyway. And he was reunited with her in the Blessed Realm. (And I firmly believe their sons joined them - in their own time. Elrond knew how to wait - and how to take pleasure in what was available to him.) Thank you!

Ellie · 20 June 2006 · Chapter 1: Belonging

That was warm and sensuous and exquisite. Nicely done and bittersweet when you know what is coming in some hundreds of years for both of them. You are such a good story teller.

Author's reply

Thank you. At least Elrond and Celebrian had about two and a half thousand years - and were then separated for about 500 before they were reunited. Elrond lost so many people who were important to him, that I'm glad he could have Celebrian as an (almost) constant. I think he became a lot happier elf for his relationship with his wife! (I'm flattered. Thank you again.)

daw the minstrel · 20 June 2006 · Chapter 1: Belonging

Oh, Bodkin, this was gorgeous. It's sexy and loving and sad, because we know her fate. She's right about him needing a family, and in a way, she's right about being always with him too, at least in some form, until the end of Arda.

Author's reply

Thank you - I'm glad you think it came off! They have two and a half millennia of happiness - but this wouldn't be Tolkien if there weren't a sting in the tail. They will be reunited!

Linda Hoyland · 20 June 2006 · Chapter 1: Belonging

It is very touching to see these two know,with knowing all the sorrow to come.

Author's reply

The sorrow is a long way off - even in elven terms. It's getting on for an age away - 2500 years. And their years together must have given Elrond the strength to endure the years until they were reunited. I think Celebrian was very good for him.

Ithil-valon · 20 June 2006 · Chapter 1: Belonging

This was beautiful...absolutely beautiful!

Author's reply

Thank you. I'm glad you enjoyed it!