Faramir wandered lost in shadows and rolling mists. He knew he must return to the Light and the world of Men - but he could not find the way.
"Faramir!" his father's voice; mourning, hopeless, despairing of an answer.
"Father I hear you, I am coming as well as I can!" his shout fell flat, muffled by the mists, and he knew with despair that Denethor had not heard.
'I must come to him, we must not part like this with bitter words said to hurt, yet not truly meant, as our last memory of each other.'
"Father! Father!"
"Faramir?"
A stirring of hope, Denethor had heard. "Wait for me, Father, wait!"
'Don't do anything desperate, don't harm yourself before I can return to you, please Father.'
Boromir was their father's favorite, this Faramir had always known, how could it be otherwise with such an elder son? Yet for all that he knew right well he was neither disregarded nor despised. Second to Boromir he might be, yet still first before all other things - even the White City and the realm itself.
'Your father loves you." Mithrandir had said, and even in his grief and hurt he had known it for truth - or would have had he let himself.
'I should not have gone. Yes the attempt to retake Osgilliath was worth risking, we might have won time if nothing else, would have if not for those archers. Massed bows I never expected - never have I seen such a tactic from Orcs before, nor read of it either.
'But I should not have let Father drive me away with bitter words that he meant no more than I meant my jibe that he had sent Boromir to his death.
'Why did I say that? Why did he say what he did? Why did we tear at each other in our grief rather than trying to console?'
When did it go so wrong between them? It had not always been so. Looking back Faramir saw many good times, that he hadn't remembered for years, of the three of them together in the chase, listening to music and tales in the Hall, or simply talking late into the night over wine. Hours alone with his father pouring eagerly over dusty scrolls and ancient tomes, sharing their common love of learning. When had all that changed - and why?
Perhaps it was just the war; the burden of Gondor and the nagging knowledge of her slow failing, and the terror of the Shadow in the East, slowly crushing the spirit out of them all.
'No. Not all, not Boromir. But we had not his courage, Father and I. We lost hope, lost faith...lost each other.'
"Father!" the shadows shifted, the mists rippled, but there came no answer. "Father!" Faramir shouted again, in terror. No answer. Nor would there be, Denethor had not waited. He was gone, this his son suddenly knew with absolute certainty.
He almost gave up then, almost let the Darkness take him, but there was still Gondor. With Boromir and Denethor lost he was all their people had left - such as he was. He had to get back to them, at least he would try as long as he had the strength to strive with the Shadow.
And strive he did. Against a power beyond his strength, losing, always losing, but refusing to surrender. He was a soldier of Gondor, however reluctantly, and he would fight Gondor's Enemy until overcome by main force.
"Faramir!"
The shadows trembled, the mists cringed. Faramir too trembled, though he knew not why. "Father?"
"Faramir!"
No, not Denethor. His father had not the power to make the shadows part and the mists roll aside as they did now before him. Opening a road to a distant light, small and bright as a star. He went towards it. Slowly at first, a little afraid, than with growing eagerness as the light neared and brightened.
Then the Shadows were behind him and Faramir saw before him the likeness of a Man. Tall and dark haired, clad in shining garments with a star of living Flame upon his brow above eyes almost as silver-bright set in a face that might have graced a statue in the Halls of the King.
Faramir knew at once upon whom he looked and was all but overcome by awe and wonder. The King held out his hand and, without hesitation, Faramir placed his in it - and felt a warm, very physical grip close around his fingers.
He opened his eyes with a gasp. He was in an unfamiliar room lit by hearth fire and a few candles, smelling of soap and blood, and sounding with the moaning of Men in pain and the soothing murmurs of Healers and Nurses.
A Man sat by his bed, one hand firmly clasped in his. Tangled hair framed a face grained with the grime of battle and lined with weariness. His clothes were rough and plain and he bore no sign of royalty save for the ring on his finger and the light shining in his eyes.
Faramir looked upon the Mortal face of his King and lost his heart to him forever. "My Lord, you called me. I come." he whispered weakly, in all the voice he could manage. "What does the King command?"
The King's smile transformed his sad, stern face filling it with a sudden, captivating warmth. "That you rest, and take food, and be ready when I call." he answered, then rose and gently disengaged his hand. "Now I must go to others that need me but I will return, my Steward."
Faramir watched him go, determined to regain his strength quickly. For who would lie idle when the King, especially such a King as this, had returned at last?
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