Maglor, cursed wanderer, sings of his loss of the Silmaril. In blank verse unrhymed.
O undiminished Light! Thou first of Trees divine by twin empyreal fruits did birth, and forth By mighty craft distilled: their strands entwined In mingled dawn. Silmarils your final form-- in hold impregnable, in shape and grace so infinite did reside thy Light Unfading. Light that wondrous love bestirred In all who saw your cool unbroken sphere whose substance pure did radiate within. Though peerless the twin Trees of Valinor: yet still unequaled shone their colors twain in twilight joined. Their living hues did dance a mutual flame; as vibrant strings their Light did harp the heart, and set the very soul in sundering song. By noble Fëanor’s hands enjewelled and joined, as woven filaments of threaded glass, and set in Silmarils thy lucent wingéd Light that outshone all other lamps and jewel. How paled the crafts of lesser hands, before thy holiest Light!
Yet lost, yet lost! that lost I the Silmaril! How moved thy Light, and how in poverty of thy radiance my sight seems blind'd and vain. For Light I lost has lost me all of light; my eyes are orbs confined that harken not, they bathe in the dawn yet pay no heed the morn for levity false and joy offensive seem before their robbéd memory. And here I dwell, a houseless ghost: Of Sun and Moon unfeeling, save their baleful cold. For what is the Sun but a tainted shield, that daily dash twixt ruddy courses, wearing burnished light that shines as true Light marred and stained. For same of the too inconstant Moon; the Moon by whom unhappy mortal Men do count their changes. Light of his but wax and wane, and hold not the endless, flawless Light's perpetual majesty. I wander i' vain, in hopes of thee; perfection of thine revisit yet. But having fallen thus, the most in misery is mine, having gain'd and lost our foremost holy Jewels and joy immeasurable in earthly estimate.
What woes have hunted since the seven sons of Fëanor! Ai! no prouder people since has dwelt in yonder Valinor, Aman no better sons. 'Tis true enough, that blood our paths did stain, and treachery, and death, yet think of us not faithless! For what faith would come of breaking Oath paternal? Constant most of all must oaths of sons and brothers hold. So thereby we did take the ships, and bloodied hands did steer their masts, and angry minds their course; in wrathful flame the swans were swallowed. Bad blood multiplied. And few love we had for doubters e'er of our thought and councils, who were slow to action yet quick to words when we were thus beset. Yet once had we set foot in cold and wildered Arda did not my heart misgive, and looked I behind our ranks, where West the wind came flying not, and Stars were veiled in mourning or wrath. And long I sang in that hour, to darkling Seas, of deed and glory! yet ere I ended, slowly themes and chords of grief and blood, our cruelty cold, and fears unending, did twine and weave among my words.
We warred for long in wrath but were unwinning; splendid though we were! a hill of frost our swords had seemed, and flame their bites did temper. Shields of ours had gleamed and held, as adamantine as resolve. Yet all for naught! Before the hated gates of the Enemy our father fell like a failing flame in the ashes. Ai, vaunting Fate, unhappy Fate who sent us thus against the reign and will of the Valar; drawn into War unceasing long and woes uncountable! Brothers! Whereto your allied spirits wander, i' pain or peace? within a fiery depth has Maedhros gone, and borne in him was one of the Jewels of art incomparable: I felt it thus. For flame had singed my thoughts, and yonder shone a Light before my mind, exceeding bright among a frond of stars. Into the earth's depths it did plummet, now as in fire, and now as in hail. What madness drove us? Torment eternal my fate has won me: to roam disgraced the strands, repentant, shamed, yet unreleased of Oath; for ever burns my heart its dooméd words.
And so I do, and so I look: to West as I had done before. Reprieve I've none but memories of thy Light. How I have dreamt of thee undimmed and blazing o'er the Sea in streaks of gold and silver. Hark! thy Light the very thieving waves do praiséd sing, and caught twixt Sun and Moon do I perceive the last of Three: at height unmoutable above the livid waves in wrath of me. Its Light caress's my eyes, yet faint its beams: reduce by distance thus, across so wide a space as 'tween the empyrean vault where tremble the Stars of Varda, queen supreme, and the earth so lowly 'neath. O chance, or fate, or strength of will—wherefore that he, in blood and kindred mixed, succeeds where mighty arms have failed? For the children of noble Finwë are scattered, and the sons of Fëanor dead. O holy Light, be moved to pity me, I stand on brink of the changed world still, with muted tongue I sing, yet words I've naught to mourn or praise your most beloved Light.
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Note:
What hubris is this! While rereading The Silmarillion and Paradise Lost in quick succession I was struck with the mirror between Milton's Satanic host (and indeed, Shelly's Prometheus) and Tolkien's Noldor in Middle-Earth. That both stories are movingly told (in part) from the point of view of the guilty seemed not accidental. Anyway, there it is, for posterity's sake.
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