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The White Tower, 26 March 3019 T.A. In a small chamber in the White Tower, Húrin, the Warden of the Keys, conferred with a trusted ally, Meldis, the housekeeper of the Steward’s residence. “Ornendil told me he might have to let the Lord Steward leave the Houses of Healing tomorrow or the day after,” Húrin said. “He would like to keep him for a few more days, but you know how Lord Faramir is when there are deeds to do. And Ornendil telling him he is strong enough for riding... that hardly helps.” Meldis shook her head slightly. “The chief healer he may be, but sometimes Ornendil is tactless. Once Lord Faramir is aware he is well enough, there is no keeping him in bed.” “There are a few things we need to take care of before he leaves the Houses,” Húrin said. “Of course,” said Meldis. “Poor boy.” “Have you cleared the late Steward’s belongings?” “I have tidied the late Steward’s chambers, but I will wait for Lord Faramir’s instructions on what to do with his father’s personal items. And I believe he prefers his own chambers to his father’s, at least for the first few days.” “But still, would you want him to return to a house full of reminders of his recently departed father and brother?” “I know better than that, Lord Húrin. I have kept all Lord Denethor’s and Lord Boromir’s things inside the chests in their chambers. Not a single thing remains in the dining chamber or the parlour—well, except the library, what could I do? The books belong to both Lord Denethor and Lord Faramir. And Lord Denethor’s study, I locked it. What about the rod? He will need it when he takes his oath.” “A new rod will be ready tomorrow.” “And what about the ... the burnt place? He may wish to go there.” “I have taken care of that. Mithrandir spoke to me before he left for the last battle. Lord Faramir had asked him whether there were any remains of his father.” Meldis’ eyes filled with tears. “Poor boy. How has it come to this? Poor Lord Denethor.” She had served Steward Denethor’s family for many years. “My men have cleared away the rubble and ashes. But of course, anyone who goes down the Silent Street will still see the broken dome and the scars of the fire. I will try to prevent him from going there for as long as I can.” “Were there any remains?” “Parts of the rod were found. The chain mail survived. I placed them all in a chest in the House of the Steward,” Húrin replied. “I have also seen to Brandir and the other three,” he added. Meldis raised her eyebrows. “Where did you send them?” “I sent them to work at Cair Andros, under Ingold’s sharp eye. I will keep them close for some time, until I discuss with Lord Faramir what should be done about them. I believe they acted out of fear and confusion, not malice, yet their actions aided a great evil.” He was talking about the household servants who had brought oil and fire to Denethor that fateful night. Meldis nodded. Then she remembered something that made her happier. “Have you seen the Lady?” Húrin kept his composure, but his face brightened. “I have even spoken to her.” “Spoken to her! How did you find an excuse to do that? What is she like? Ioreth kept babbling about how beautiful she is.” “The Warden of the Keys can always find a reason to drop by anywhere. Beautiful? Aye, very. Tall, golden hair, a regal bearing. Our Lord Faramir seemed less grave when he was with her.” “Is she smitten by him? Ioreth said she must be, although outwardly she seems reserved.” “She seemed content sitting and talking with him. And she wore the mantle.” “Did she! I was so surprised when Lord Faramir sent for it. I knew then that Ioreth’s tales have some truth.” Húrin took a sip of the honey water that Meldis offered him. “So, the Steward’s residence is ready? Let me know if you need anything. I have asked Ornendil to send word to you before he releases Lord Faramir.” “It is ready.” “Good evening, then, Mistress Meldis. I will see you tomorrow.” ...
The Houses of Healing, 27 March 3019 T.A.
The night before Faramir was to take his oath as the Steward, Húrin visited him in the Houses of Healing. He came as Faramir studied the reports on the goods sent to Cormallen and the food stores in the City. “Given the extent of the destruction of the farmlands on the Pelennor, the next harvest may not be sufficient. We will need to dip into our reserves,” Faramir said. Húrin nodded. “It would be prudent to keep the food ration in place for now, my lord.” “Are the Rohirrim content with their lodgings and rations? Who among them speaks with you on such matters?” “Marshal Elfhelm. Thus far, he has not mentioned lacking anything. There had been a minor misunderstanding about the grains for their horses, but we have sorted it.” Faramir nodded, then he put down the parchments on the bedside table. “I had meant to ask; do you have the rod? Or do we have to find a substitute while waiting for a new one to be made?” Húrin looked searchingly at Faramir before he answered. “The old rod was broken, but I had a new one made. The smith delivered it this afternoon.” He continued cautiously, “There has not been time to forge a new Steward’s ring, but I have this.” Reaching beneath his robe, he produced a small box and held it out to Faramir. While not originally a sign of the Steward’s office like the white rod, the Steward’s ring had been handed down through many generations and had come to represent the authority of the Stewards. It was a plain gold band unadorned by any gems, as unassuming as the Steward’s white banner. On the inner side was engraved the mark Cirion had used when he called for Eorl’s aid: the tengwar R.ND.R with three stars above the letters. Faramir accepted the box but did not open it. He grew quiet. “I found it almost intact, only a few small parts melted.” Húrin’s voice grew softer as he continued, “I have asked the smith to clean it, as I thought you might want to keep it, even if you choose to have a new one made.” Faramir opened the box slowly. He took the ring and placed it in his palm. Then he returned it to the box. “This will do,” he said. “In fact, I prefer it.” Then he asked, “I believe you have also taken care of the late Steward’s remains, Lord Húrin?” Húrin nodded. “Worry not, my lord. The ashes and remains are kept with due honour.” Faramir clasped Húrin’s hand between his own and looked into his eyes. “Thank you, Lord Húrin.” Húrin placed a hand on Faramir’s shoulder. “You have done very well, Faramir.” Later, when the house had grown quiet and the night pressed close, Faramir sat in the stillness of his room. He opened the box again and took the ring in his hand, studying it for a moment before slipping it onto his fourth finger. He gazed at it again, tracing the burn marks slowly. He blew out the candle on his bedside table. Then, in the blessed darkness of the night, he kissed the ring reverently, and let his tears fall as he quietly remembered his father. ...
Early the next morning, as Faramir prepared to leave his room, a knock came at the door. He opened it to find Erien, the cook who had served the Steward’s family for many years. She brought a large basket and the scent of freshly-baked bread—an unusual and welcome change from the aroma of medicinal herbs that lingered in the Houses of Healing. “Good morning, Lord Faramir. You did say you would like to leave early today.” Erien entered the room, placed her basket on the table, and even drew open the curtain, as though it were part of her daily routine. “I mentioned it to the Warden,” Faramir said. “I did not expect him to send for you to fetch me home.” “O, how you jest! Of course you do not need fetching, my lord. But to go home alone, as if you had no one, while so many have cared for you, where is the sense in that? Meldis is busy making the house spotless, so I get to come instead. But why did you not tell us you were coming home, my lord?” She spoke the last remark in the same tone she had used when urging young Faramir to finish his meals. Faramir smiled faintly. “To avoid the fuss, perhaps.” “What fuss? The lord of the house is returning—” She stopped abruptly and turned her back to him. When she turned back, her expression was calm again, though her eyes glistened. “Let me pack your things, then I will set up a meal for you.” Then she looked around the room, noticing the empty table, the bare walls and the chest in the corner. “O, you have already packed, even your nightshirt.” Faramir refrained from telling her, even in jest, that he had survived in Ithilien and Osgiliath without her or Meldis. He rather enjoyed being fussed over by the kind, motherly cook this morning. “Would you like to break your fast now? Let me set it up.” “Would you set it up in the garden, Mistress Erien?” He added, rather sheepishly, “And do you happen to bring enough for two?” Erien’s eyes widened. “It is true, then! You and the lady of Rohan! Why did I not think of that? Enough for two, but that means you cannot have a second helping. And it is porridge with cinnamon and apple slices, your favourite.” Faramir raised an eyebrow. “Second helping? Apple slices? My dear Cook, do you forget we are still under food rationing?” Erien huffed. “You need better food to regain your strength, my lord. And I have kept strictly to the rations. The apples are the ones preserved from last harvest—I would love to give you fresh ones, but these are what we have. Surely I am allowed to use what I find in my kitchen?” Then she corrected herself with a blush, “I mean, your kitchen, my lord.” Faramir chuckled, then his gravity returned. “I thank you, Mistress Erien,” he said. ... When they reached the garden in the Houses of Healing, there was no sign yet of the Lady of Rohan. Erien placed a bowl of steaming wheat porridge before Faramir, and proceeded to slice the apples. The sweet scent of cinnamon and apples filled the air, mingling with the comforting aroma of bread. The simple porridge had been Faramir’s favourite breakfast as a child. As he grew older, Erien made it for him whenever he was ill or returning home after a long absence. Just as Erien finished setting up the bowls of porridge and a plate of fresh bread and butter, the lady of Rohan appeared. Faramir rose to greet her. “We have special fare this morning, Lady Éowyn,” he said. “Courtesy of Mistress Erien, the head cook of the Citadel.” Erien did not try to hide her interest; she openly watched the lady. Then she gave her a curtsey and greeted her. “My lady,” she said. “Mistress Erien,” said Éowyn as she dipped her head. “This smells delightful.” Then she took her seat. Erien left them to their meal and went off to find a servant to take Faramir’s belongings to the Steward’s residence. After they finished their meal, they parted, for Faramir was to leave the Houses of Healing that morning, but the Warden had asked Éowyn to stay a few more days. “I will come from time to time,” Faramir told her, “though not as often as I wish, I am afraid.” Éowyn said, “Come when your duties permit you, lord. It would gladden my stay here.” With some reluctance she added, “But you must go and get ready now.” “I will see you in the Hall, Éowyn,” he said. He had invited her and Marshal Elfhelm of Rohan to witness him taking the oath as the Steward. Éowyn nodded. “I will be there, Lord Faramir.” They left the garden and found Erien and the Warden waiting at the entrance of the Houses. After listening to the Warden’s final instructions and assuring him that he would come every few days to have a healer tend to him, Faramir left with Erien. From the terrace of the Houses, Éowyn watched them—the tall, lordly man and the short, plump matron, their heads turned toward each other as they conversed. For some reason, the sight made her smile. ... At the gate of the Citadel, the guards bowed low as Faramir approached. “’Tis good to see you return, my lord," one of them said. Then, with a loud voice, he shouted towards the Citadel, "The Lord Steward enters!" As Faramir passed through the gate, he looked up at the White Tower, a stark contrast to the ruin he had seen in his fevered dream under the Black Breath. Today the Tower stood tall, its white stone gleaming in the sunlight, and the Steward’s banner fluttered at its peak. Erien requested his leave to make her way to the Steward’s residence ahead of him. “The Tower guards must have been waiting impatiently to speak with you,” she said with a smile. “I will see you at home, my lord.” True enough, the guards had gathered at the entrance of the Tower. “Lord Faramir!” “Lord Steward!” they called eagerly as he approached. Faramir was as glad to see them. Among the guards, he noticed some who had followed him to Osgiliath. Their eyes met, and a silent understanding passed between them. How strange it seemed, that they had returned when so many had not. He entered the Tower and ascended the stairs to the Steward’s Residence. The door stood open, and inside, Meldis and the other servants had gathered to greet him. It was a sight Faramir had never seen before, not even when he and Boromir had returned from their successful campaign in Osgiliath the previous summer. Yet today they welcomed not only the lord of the house, but one who had returned from the brink of death. Meldis curtseyed deeply and took his cloak. “Welcome home, my lord,” she said. “I have placed your things in your chamber. Do you wish to use the Steward’s chambers instead?” Faramir shook his head. “Eventually. But not today.” When he entered his chamber, he saw his bed was made with crisp new sheets. Had the curtain been changed as well? Hanging on the wall were his best tunic, his finest robe and the white mantle of the Steward, all sparkling and without a crease. His belt and sword rested on the table, gleaming and waiting. He knew that if he went to his father’s chamber, he would find it equally prepared, with the things that might remind him of his father carefully kept away from view. He turned to Meldis, who stood quietly behind him. “Thank you, Mistress Meldis.” The housekeeper pressed her lips together to maintain her composure. “My lord.” ... Acknowledgement: The part about the household servants welcoming Faramir home was inspired by Altariel’s fanfiction “Leaving the House” in ff.net. To Faramir, Steward of Gondor, my beloved sister-son. I am alive and well, and so are your cousins Erchirion and Amrothos. We shall return to you after a brief rest here in Ithilien. Before the Host embarked on this desperate journey, I had laughed at our small company, too few to be properly called a host. Yet a greater power than the might of arms was at work, and the greatest deed was achieved by the smallest hands. I will recount it all to you when we sit together in your study, and I look forward to that hour. By the time this letter reaches you, you may have taken your oath as the Ruling Steward of Gondor. I will hasten to come and pledge my fealty to you in person. Until then, my lord, let the love I have borne you all these years stand as the pledge between us. You know how dearly I loved Boromir and how highly I respected your father. Do not take it amiss, then, when I say this: knowing that the White Rod rests in your hand fills my heart with joy and pride. In my mind no one was better suited to hold it than you. Lord Aragorn will soon write to you, if he has not already done so, to formally present his claim to the throne of Gondor. You have a claim to full honesty from me, so let me tell you that I have addressed Lord Aragorn as King Elessar during our journey. The majesty of the line of Elendil resides in him, I trust you have also recognised it. Yet in no way have I or any other men of Gondor pledged our allegiance to him, and he knows this. As the Chieftain of Arnor we regard him. My loyalty is to Gondor and her Steward, as it has always been. Should you choose to repeat Pelendur’s answer to him, be assured of my support as a member of your Council and as your elder. If you choose to accept his claim, I will likewise stand behind you. Whatever you decide, Faramir, my only wish is that this matter shall not distress you inordinately. O, how hollow my words must sound! I laugh at my own words—how can it not distress you? But I hope you will understand what my words cannot adequately convey. I would write more, but I must stop here so that the messenger may reach you without delay. May Anor ever shine on you, who had for so long held under the shadow. Written in Ithilien, 26 March 3019 T.A. Imrahil son of Adrahil, Prince of Dol Amroth ... To Húrin, Warden of the Keys of Minas Tirith. Lord Húrin, Greetings from Ithilien, where I encamp among the Host of the West. I have written to the Lord Steward to report to him the glad tidings of our unlooked-for deliverance from our Enemy. It is my concern for the Lord Steward which compels me to write to you as well. You have ever been faithful to the late Lord Denethor, and fond of my nephews. I trust you will understand my bluntness and reciprocate with an equally plain answer. How fares Faramir, Lord Húrin? I do not doubt his body has mended and he has already taken up his duties, as is his wont. I expect he bears his grief with grace, yet I fear it weighs heavily upon him nonetheless. It is too much to hope that he is free of sorrow, given the dreadful manner in which he lost his father. But I urge you, Lord Húrin, to do what you can to ensure that he does not slip into despondency. By now, the Steward may have spoken to you of Lord Aragorn of the North, who either has or will soon present his claim to the throne of Gondor. Should the Steward take you into his confidence on this matter—though I think he will guard his thoughts even from his trusted counsel—assure him that we stand with him no matter his decision. He has my support, and I believe you and others of wisdom will stand with him as well. I would ask, too, to see that his household takes particular care of him in the days ahead. The small comforts of hearth and home, I have learnt, can ease even the heaviest burdens. May the stars shine on your path, who has served Gondor faithfully. Written in Ithilien, 26 March 3019 T.A. Imrahil son of Adrahil, Prince of Dol Amroth ...
The Hall of the Tower, 28 March 3019 T.A. Éowyn gazed upward, studying the lofty, gold-plated vaults of the hall. So this is the Hall of the Tower, the heart of the Citadel of Minas Tirith, she thought. The men of Gondor did have reasons for being proud and solemn. It was a bright morning, fitting for the occasion. Éowyn stood alongside Marshall Elfhelm of the Riddermark, Lord Húrin of the Keys, an older lord whom Húrin had introduced as Lord Meneldil, the Lord Treasurer, and the Captains of the Guard of Minas Tirith. They gathered around the black chair of the Steward in the Hall. When Lord Faramir entered the Hall, Éowyn felt her breath catch. She had noted his regal bearing from their first meeting. But the man who strode towards them now seemed a figure from the old tales—one who belonged more to the glorious ages sung in lays than to the weary days of the present. He was clad in black, as he often was, but that day his garments were of even richer fabric, with the White Tree of Gondor embroidered in distinct silver upon the front of his black surcoat. Éowyn could not help noticing the craftsmanship—only the finest silver thread and the hand of a master embroiderer could produce such exquisite detail. Of course, nothing less would befit the Lord Steward of Gondor. He wore a chainmail shirt and his sword was buckled at his side. It was the first time Éowyn had seen him armed. His solemn expression reminded her of a knight riding to a great battle. She thought again, as she had during their first meeting, that no rider of the Mark would outmatch this man in battle. And he was comely, his face shaped with both wisdom and valour. An image of Faramir in full armour, astride a mighty steed, slipped unbidden into her mind. A faint smile touched her lips. Faramir stopped just before the dais. A page handed him a bright white mantle, which he donned. Éowyn recognized it at once—the white mantle of the Steward, reserved for most solemn occasions. Steward Cirion himself had worn a white mantle when he accepted Eorl’s oath at the ceremony that had given birth to the kingdom of Rohan. She watched as Lord Faramir knelt silently before the empty throne, rose, walked to the austere black chair of the Steward, then took his seat. Lord Húrin stepped forward. Standing near the Steward’s chair, he turned to those gathered and briefly recounted the history of the Stewards of Gondor—how Mardil Voronwë became the first Ruling Steward, how his descendants had steadfastly safeguarded Gondor in the absence of the King. Holding the white rod of the Steward, Húrin approached Faramir and intoned in the Elven-tongue, “I, Húrin son of Túor, Warden of the Keys of Minas Tirith, hereby pass the white rod of the Steward of Gondor, from our late Steward Denethor son of Ecthelion, to his son Faramir. Take now your oath.” He passed the rod to Faramir, who accepted it and said, “Here do I swear, Faramir son of Denethor, to hold rod and rule in the name of the king, until he shall return.” Húrin’s voice rang out again, “Thus begin the days of Faramir son of Denethor, Lord of Gondor, Steward of the High King. Long may his rule be, unless the king shall return.” One by one Húrin, Meneldil, and the Captains knelt, offering their fealty. As each rose, they embraced Faramir. When the last Captain had spoken his oath of fealty, Faramir rose, the Steward’s rod in his hand. Seeing him then, Éowyn was reminded of the images of the Kings of Númenór in the books her mother had read to her as a child. When Faramir came to her, Éowyn curtseyed and smiled. “My Lord Steward.” More than being awed by his dignity, she was moved by his defiance. As the sister-daughter of the King of Rohan, she had known of Gondor’s dwindling might in their long struggle against Mordor. And she had heard of Boromir’s departure and Denethor’s dreadful end. The man before her, she knew, had many reasons to despair but did not; had every cause to be bitter but defiantly refused to yield. At her side Elfhelm bowed. “My Lord Steward.” Faramir returned her smile and nodded to Elfhelm. “I am glad to have you here. Did you know that the last time the House of Eorl attended the Steward of Gondor’s ceremony was back in Túrin II’s time? Prince Folcred was at Minas Tirith at that time.” Éowyn's smile widened. She enjoyed history when it was told well, but she had never met anyone so eager to recount it as Faramir. It struck her how this solemn lord of Gondor could still find joy in such things, while living so close to the Shadow. “Had it not been just after the battles, would you have had a grand celebration, lord?” Elfhelm asked. “Nay,” Faramir answered. “We have gone to great lengths to remind all that stewards are not kings, and the oath taking is not a crowning. The lords of the fiefs and the captains will attend and swear their fealty, that is all.” “But surely there will be a feast after the ceremony?” asked Elfhelm. In Rohan, less grand occasions would call for joyous feasts. “There will be a feast, but it will be... muted, perhaps you would say that? Usually, the lords and captains gather for the previous steward’s funeral, and the new steward takes his oath a day or two after the funeral, thus the subdued tone of the feast.” At the mention of funeral, Éowyn felt a pang of pity. There was no funeral for his father. She had heard, in whispered fragments, of Denethor’s tragic end. “I see,” said Elfhelm. “So, it is customary to take the oath without delay? You did not wait for the lords and captains’ arrival.” Húrin answered, “It is customary for the new steward to take up his authority as soon as circumstances permit. The lords and captains would usually already gather here for the funeral, so they would witness the oath taking. But according to our law, the presence of the Warden of the Keys suffices to make it official.” Again Éowyn felt her heart stirred. She wished the Hall was full of lords and captains and their ladies, kneeling to this man. Yet she was also glad that she was among the few privileged to witness this solemn occasion. “Some are wounded and are still under the healers’ care at Cormallen,” Faramir said. “I do not wish to press the battle-weary captains to attend to me. Yet I would like to take up my duties without delay and prepare for the return of the king.” Éowyn was startled. The king? When she heard Faramir take the oath to rule ‘until the king returns’, she had thought the words mere ritual. Back in Edoras, she had heard about Aragorn’s lineage, but during her time in Minas Tirith, she never associated Aragorn’s kingship with something that would displace the Steward. What would become of the Steward when the King returned? To her surprise she felt fiercely protective of this man whom she had known for only a few days. Aragorn had better treat him with the honour he deserved. Or better still, he could return to the North where he came from. Minas Tirith seemed well enough without a king. In the days before the eagles brought the glad tidings of victory, she had witnessed how Faramir planned for another possible attack on Minas Tirith, along with preparations for escape, should it become necessary. Her uncle Théoden had always held the Steward Denethor’s wisdom and command in high regard. From what Éowyn had observed, Faramir seemed to possess the same qualities. “Lady Éowyn?” She found him looking at her with that perceptive gaze. For a moment, she was certain he could see into her thoughts. “Pardon, lord? I was deep in thought.” He smiled kindly. “You were.” Éowyn flushed. “Shall we go now, lady?” Faramir asked again. “I will accompany you back to the Houses of Healing.” Before Éowyn could answer, Elfhelm, being Éowyn’s nearest kinsman while Éomer was away, offered politely. “I am heading down to the lower circle, lord. I will walk with the Lady. You may have more pressing matters to attend to.” Faramir smiled and held Elfhelm’s gaze. “I will walk with the Lady, Marshal.” He spoke kindly, but with authority. Faramir stepped closer to Éowyn and offered his arm. He had replaced the white mantle with a simpler cloak. As Éowyn quietly placed her hand on Faramir’s arm, she sensed Elfhelm watching them curiously. But the Marshall wisely kept his thoughts to himself. ... As they walked together to the Houses of Healing after the oath-taking ceremony, Éowyn cast several glances towards Faramir. He did not turn to her, but presently he said, “Is there aught you wish to ask, lady?” Éowyn flushed slightly, but she asked in a steady voice, “The king—is he truly coming? Does he intend to take your place?” “I expect Lord Aragorn to present his claim,” Faramir replied. “I will answer him, after conferring with my Council.” “Answer him—you can refuse him, then?” “Do you wish me to? Are you concerned for me, Lady Éowyn?” There was a hint of mirth in his voice. “Nay, I am only wondering—o, very well.” She turned to fully face him. “Yea, I am concerned for you, Lord Faramir. You speak of Gondor like one speaks of a beloved lady. What will become of you if you are no longer its lord?” For a moment, silence settled between them, broken only by the rustling of leaves in the trees above them. Faramir’s gaze was gentle yet unyielding, and Éowyn knew that not even the Nazgul had deterred this man. “It is very kind of you, lady. Did I sound like a lover when I spoke of Gondor? Perhaps. But I was not the Lord of Gondor until recently; I never thought I would be. I find I like my new duty, but I have not grown to love the authority.” Éowyn thought back to their early days in the Houses of Healing, when it had seemed very likely that the Host of the West would perish, and Minas Tirith would face another siege—one they might not survive. Even then, when being the Lord of Gondor seemed more a burden than an honour, she did not recall Faramir uttering a bitter remark. She could well imagine him surrendering his place to Aragorn with the same grace and quiet dignity. Did he even think what he would do, where he would go, after he was no longer the Steward? “Do you have lands of your own, Lord Faramir, that will remain yours, should you no longer be the Steward?” To her surprise, Faramir smiled happily. “You do worry for me! My family owns lands in Minas Tirith and in some other regions of Gondor. Some of my forefathers, not to mention some of their ladies, were shrewd administrators. I am a Captain of Gondor; I have a seat in the Council. Are you satisfied?” Éowyn’s cheeks flushed. Surely he did not misunderstand and think that she was assessing his prospects as her suitor? Yet the worry in her heart prevailed and she pressed on. “Even if you accept Lord Aragorn’s claim as the King, please think of yourself, Lord Faramir. He should give you a position befitting your lineage and qualities.” Faramir regarded her steadily. “I will not bargain with the King, Éowyn. Either I accept his claim and serve him completely, or I let Gondor remain without a king.” After a brief pause, he continued kindly, “But I do not make light of your concerns, which are right and for which I am grateful. Everyone has treated me and my brother as princes; my father was a king in all but name. “I have wondered, too, how it would be to serve someone other than my own father. Yet what is the use in wondering? I will do my best to fulfill my duty, as I always have.” Éowyn had tried her best to fulfill her duty, and it drove her to despair. Now, while she still thought the role assigned to her was unfair, she also felt like a child who lacked the discipline to apply herself to a task. “Have you always been content with your duty, lord? Do you not have anything that you wish for yourself?” “In this I have been fortunate. I love my land, my lord and my people. My deepest wish is to protect Gondor, and that has been my duty.” Éowyn glanced at him. The wind ruffled his dark hair, and for a moment, she wondered how old he was. At times, he looked young; at others, he seemed a sage of great age and wisdom. She said hesitantly, “Yet I have heard that you prefer the solace of books and music to the clash of swords in battle.” Faramir’s gaze did not waver. “Ah, you have heard some people talk of me? Yea, there were times when I wished I could spend my days reading and writing. But when it comes to defending our land and people, there really is no question or reluctance. I believe most people think the same way.” His voice grew softer as he continued. “You have borne burdens I have not, Éowyn. You had a courage the match of a Captain’s. Was it not a great pain to see your land threatened, your lord consumed by despair, and yet not allowed to fight to defend them?” By now, Éowyn was no longer surprised that he understood her. “You men are fortunate,” she said, a note of envy creeping into her voice. “Your duty allows you to defend what you love.” “But you have defended your lord at the end, lady, against such a deadly foe.” He looked at her with understanding and great respect. Yet, under his gaze, Éowyn felt compelled to examine and acknowledge her failings. “I deserted my post,” she said in a low voice, admitting it more to herself than to him. He regarded her. “What was the post which you deserted?” “Before my uncle left for battle against Isengard, he charged me with leading our people to Dunharrow,” she replied. “I completed that task,” she continued. “Then, after the battle at Helm’s Deep, he came to Dunharrow to muster our people to ride here. He did not give any further instructions to me, yet neither did I return the rod he gave me, nor did he appoint another to lead.” Éowyn paused, remembering. “There was Marshal Erkenbrand. Theoden King appointed him to lead the defence in case of any attack. But I was the only one left of the House of Eorl. Everyone understood that I should lead the people as the daughter of Eorl.” They had almost reached the Houses of Healing when a cold breeze swept past them. Éowyn pulled her mantle tighter around her body. Her eyes fell on Faramir’s cloak, which had loosened slightly from its clasp. Almost without thinking, her hand moved to adjust it. Her fingers brushed the fabric, lingering just briefly on his shoulder before she realized what she was doing. Their eyes met, startled, her hand still resting on his shoulder. His expression was one of astonishment, as though she had done him a great honour. They both looked away quickly, the moment stretching between them. “Thank you,” Faramir said quietly, his voice uncharacteristically uneven. Then he asked, “Shall we take a longer path? Thus we may continue our discourse.” Éowyn nodded, her cheeks warm despite the cold weather. Together, they turned away from the entrance, their steps now slower. “What compelled you to ride to Gondor, Éowyn?” Faramir asked. “Did you wish so greatly to join the battle? Or had the duty at home become unbearable?” He spoke about the burden of duty as one who had experienced it, and it dawned on her that he was not a strange being born with infinite forbearance. He, too, had felt the burden of duty. He had become the man he was through many conscious choices, effort and resolve. “I sought death,” she said, deciding that his plain question deserved a plain answer. "And if I could perform some glorious deed before I died, that would be an added blessing.” “Why did you seek death?” He asked as one might ask a weaver or a healer why they chose their trades—a simple inquiry. “I was weary of my duties.” She looked away, setting her gaze on the winter blooms lining the stone path. “In recent years, Theoden King had sunk into despair and old age feebleness,” she continued. “Gandalf healed him just before they rode to Helm’s Deep. I had grown weary of waiting upon faltering feet. Since they faltered no longer, and had ridden to win renown, I thought, why should I not do the same?” Faramir remained silent, as if knowing that this was not the only reason. She spoke again, in a softer voice. “As the King declined, some had whispered insolently, ‘What is the House of Eorl but a thatched barn where brigands drink in the reek, and their brats roll on the floor among their dogs?’ “I felt such pain and anger when I heard that, but I could not help suspecting that it was true, at least partially. “And if Gondor fell, the Enemy would not stop there—Mordor’s creatures would come for Rohan, too. Rather than die in captivity, I chose to die in battle in Minas Tirith, to have my death remembered, sung for years to come. If I had to die, I would choose how and with whom I would die.” As she uttered her last words, Éowyn saw Faramir’s expression tighten, as if a shadow had passed over him. She saw pain in his eyes. He looked away briefly, then nodded for her to continue. “Did I say something wrong, Lord Faramir?” she asked. He shook his head. “Pray continue, Éowyn.” She hesitated for a moment, thinking whether she should ask what had caused him such pain. But he shook his head again and said, “Pray continue, Éowyn. We will talk about me some other time.” Éowyn nodded and returned to her reflections. There was her bitterness about Aragorn—but she did not wish to tell that tale to Faramir, at least not now. Choosing her words carefully, she said, “And when Lord Aragorn and his companions came to Dunharrow, I had hoped that they would fight with us. When he chose to take the Path of the Dead, I felt all hope was lost.” Faramir’s brow furrowed at the mention of the Path of the Dead, but he did not ask, perhaps restraining his curiosity to let Éowyn finish her story. But Éowyn felt she had spoken enough and was silent. Faramir waited, giving her chance to speak again. Finally, he asked, “Do you still seek death now, or wish for it?” The answer came swiftly in Éowyn’s heart, surprising herself. “Nay,” she said. At her answer, she saw something in his eyes—more than the relief of seeing another person choosing life. Was that joy, and admiration? Although he did not ask further, she felt the need to say more. “When I decided to ride to Gondor, all I thought about was my bitterness and my death. I was not thinking about my people or who would lead them.” Faramir smiled. “I think you are wiser than you paint yourself, Éowyn. Did you not send a message to Marshal Erkenbrand before you rode? Or entrust a trusted person to lead the people?” “I sent a message to Erkenbrand,” she replied. “But still, I deserted my post. My valour in battle does not erase that, does it?” “Nay, it does not,” he said firmly. “But neither does your rash decision—if we may call it that—diminish your valour and the great deed you accomplished. Console yourself with the good that came from your riding here. And you can still make amends for leaving your post.” “Amends?” “Amends to your people,” Faramir said. “You once placed yourself above them, when you were weary and duty seemed unbearable. Now that you have gathered new strength, place your people first. Defend them when you return to Rohan.” “But Éomer is King and he will be there; they will not need another to defend them,” she said, puzzled. “Do we have to be rulers to defend our people?” he replied. Then he smiled. It was such a sincere smile, which made Éowyn wonder why she had ever thought glory in battle was the only thing worth pursuing. And he looked at her tenderly, which made her imagine that he found her remarkable despite her failings, and stirred all manner of wishful thoughts within her. Then he spoke again. “Shall we go to the Houses now? I will not stop by, for if I do, I will be tempted to sit in the garden with you until the sun sets.” She laughed softly. “Certainly, lord. Go, your duty awaits.” ... |
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