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Chapter Sixty-Nine: Hope Translator’s Note: The queen provided the translation for the poem that appears here. The trees grow tall beneath the sun, In spring the world is fair. In valleys green where rivers run, I find no solace there. The fields and mountains of this world, They hold no peace for me. I long to see the sails unfurled And sail across the sea.
My weary soul seeks rest. I’ll soon depart this hither shore And sail into the West. Soon this world will lie behind, The sea will lie before, And peace and healing I hope to find Upon that blissful shore.
I will treasure all of my memories of our love as we travel to the Havens and hold it all tight against my heart so none of it is ever lost. I hope I will be smiling at times for you so you can see that and it can perhap give your heart some ease, that even though we will soon be apart, you can remember how much joy and love I have for you and that you have given me all these many years. I don’t want you to have just tears and torment to remember. I hope that last night I can spend in your arms, tucked as always around your heart. *** When we first came back home, Rose wondered why I had left you when things were still bad. I couldn’t answer and so went right back to you. I wish I hadn’t had to leave you as you sailed off either. The only way I could do that was that I knew you were going somewhere you could be happy and healed. I am that glad that the Lady spoke to me those nights on the way and tried to explain to me why you had to leave. You said that you had been too deeply hurt and she helped me understand how. I made sure I held you or your hand each of those nights, just so you’d know your Sam was still with you. I hope you have felt me hold you each night since then too when you have needed it or I have. I still wonder at times how you did it, how you were able to bear leaving. I stayed awake much of the night just so I could watch you, softly glowing in the moonlight, just like the Elves were. You could have been an Elven child among them, all wrapped up in your cloak and your face peeking out, so beautiful, so very, very beautiful. Your hand was warm in mine and our fingers were so entwined that it couldn’t be told which were yours and which were mine. When I couldn’t keep my eyes open a moment longer, I took you into my arms and settled down with you. You sought my heart and returned to your slumber, holding onto me. I kissed your head and slept myself. I watch you still. It was that terrible in the beginning to jump out of bed when I heard your heart cry out and then realize that I couldn’t reach you. I still went to your bedroom even though I knew you weren’t there. I didn’t want Rose or Elanor to wake to hear my tears and there were many in the beginning and I shed most of them there. Then the Lady gave me her gift and I could see you but also tears that I couldn’t wipe no matter how much I wanted. I almost didn’t want to see you then but I watched and felt my heart break a little more that you were still so hurt. Rose would wipe my tears when I returned to bed and hold me and sing to me as I sang to you, until I could fall back asleep. I have not deserved such a double treasure of you two, but I have been so blessed and I couldn’t be happier. I continued to watch you and bit by bit the tears disappeared and your smile returned. I longed to touch that smile with my fingers and not just my heart. I will do that, my love, I will. I can’t wait. |
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